Since February, long before the command of 'stay home' I have stayed away from going anywhere except the base pharmacy to have prescriptions filled. That I could not avoid and I admit I was concerned. Early on there'd be children in the waiting room coughing and sputtering.. scary.
Lately not so many folks in there and few children and seemingly not ill, thank you Jesus!
Can't remember the last time I was inside a store of any kind. And no masks then for sure.
It costs a bit but I can have my groceries and supplies ordered online and delivered within 2 days! THAT has been a blessing. I was ordering them online and picking them up before all this anyway. I'm blessed to have a closed in front porch where I have a table and chairs so anything I order can be brought into the porch while I watch behind the storm door in the living room. SAFE! Then I go out with my walker and armed with Chlorox wipes, wiping every item down and loading into the walker to haul to the kitchen et al. SO blessed! I have friends that bring me stuff and they do the same for me.
I feel safe! I feel secure! I do not feel fear or worry! Some concern yes but never dwell on it.
Now I'm facing having to have blood work done, a mammogram and x ray! ALL taking me into a hospital area!!! That concerns me. That is where all the sick people are, Covid19 or not. I check ALL the boxes of risk: I'm elderly, obese, have lung problems, diabetes, high BP, etc. etc. I have NO BUSINESS going anywhere that puts me in danger of being sick!!
I've tried to give it all to God. I have been praying so hard for an answer. I know when I feel less concerned in my heart it will be God telling me it's okay.
NOW, don't get me wrong. I trust God with all my heart!! He has protected me so far and I'm certain He won't stop! I believe I'll know when I can go and do these things again.
I rarely watch news on tv anymore, sick of not only the virus news about so many folks testing positive and way too many dying from it! But at least once a day I do check and today was the first day in a very long time that NO ONE was added to the lists of those dying in FL panhandle. But positive cases were still up and that is probably due to many more people being tested! Some folks that are quarantined due to a positive test, are tested every 2 weeks until they get a negative result, being sick or not. I'm sure those are included in the everyday tallys.
Hundreds of thousands have tested positive in FL and thousands have died! I also know that there is a 90+% chance of recovering, but rarely by someone in my condition eh?
I am so blessed with many people loving me and praying for me. I rely on them more than they know.
Just 'getting this off my chest' has been a big help. If you've read this down to here... thank you! And know you are loved and prayed for. I wish people would leave comments. Don't even know if anyone reads my stuff.