UPDATE!! I actually walked from the kitchen to the living room with no cane!! A slight limp though... it's time for me to take more pain meds and I really don't think I need any.. maybe this means I got the good stuff? I had been sitting here at the lappy and went into the kitchen for my leftover sea dog from last night. The dogs were harrassing me to eat something! GAWD they would starve if I didn't eat and share with them...... anyway, I am feeling a lot better. Still feeling kinda weak and think I'll wait until tomorrow for the pool.. I have 2 in this week right? Monday and Wed? And with no game Sunday I can go in the afternoon after church if I want. I hope this continues.. even if it doesn't get better just PLEASE God don't let it get worse again! Thank You Jesus!!
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So Lord! What the heck am I doing up? Woke up at 4 am!! Just could not go back to sleep.. so am on my desk top before it gets too hot in here....... lots to do!! Not sure about the pain level today yet! Maybe by the time I wake up? Have a blessed day!!WAHOOOOOOOO!! Because of my hip pain I had to leave around the 6th inning last night never realizing I had only seen about half the game! Just couldn't handle the pain. So came home and was listening on the radio! I LOVE taking Tommy Thrall to bed with me! After a 1 to zip lead for the Wahoos, the Bay Bears,which are 26 games over .500 with the best record in the South Division at 73-47, tied itup in the 8th! The battle ensued until the bottom of the 11th!! When the Wahoos awesome Devon Lohman hit a sac fly to win 2 to 1!!! I was laying there praying so hard! The Bay Bears were the first half Champs and will probably be 2nd half also. A HUGE win for our guys!! SOOO proud of them. So sorry for Ben Lively after pitching so well for 7 innings and not to get the win. Sometimes I do not understand baseball!! lol My man Brodie N Natalie Greene after continuing to be robbed, finally got a hit!
only 7 home games left this season!! YIKES!! I'm already having withdrawals. I will miss my guys so much! Oh yeah, this year I have several recorded games and will be watching them, and probably re-watching them, this off season. I don't remember much at my age so it will be like watching a whole new game!! LOL Just finished sending in the final donations for my St. Baldrick's event.. Totalled $1015!! If you want to check up on me, or continue to donate, you can go to StBaldricks.com and search for JRoAnne Bergman.... thanks to all who supported me!! It was a great time and a true blessing. I guess the next one is the ice water deal for ALS if/when my hip allows it! Hoping I can do it before the season is over! Garbage out and at the curb! Outgoing mail on the mail slot! So far so good. Still need the cane but NOT having to lean on it to put weight on my right leg... I'm up and down in this desk chair, hobbling around the room, and it seems the pain is better...... so far!! Praise God!!! Must get off this desktop... will be getting hot in here soon.. also I've been sitting here too long.. Got the skeleton for my newsletter done and will have to work on that more later. Going back to lay down for a while, hopefully will remember to take the phone! lol doubt I will sleep, but laying prone helps the hip. Another beautiful Chamber of Commerce day in P'Cola!! otherwise known as Paradise!! woke up at 5:30 and tried my best to go back to sleep but finally had to get up at 6.. it's okay as I have a drs appt this am early. I have mixed feelings on this one as I've lost more weight faster than I think he wants! But I feel great and all my bloodwork in the past few weeks have been great so...
Hoping to get to the pool later also and of course baseball tonight! OH BOY!! God help me I am in a lot of pain today!! The Good News?? Yesterday I was handed a debit/credit card with almost $200 on it and it will be added to as my visits occur. What a joy to get cash and put $100 on my bank CC and purchase a FULL tank of gas! Sad that I wasn't able to do it 5 days ago at 8 cents cheaper! Grr. I do not know what was in the injection but I believe the injection itself has aggravated my hip! I've taken 2 doses of Tylonol and it has barely touched my pain. The trip to the docs this am was good! I had to use my cane and my leg was truly aching. BUT on his scale I weigh 248 just as on mine! He was impressed! AND he was able to give me another script for the meds but medicare made him cut them back so I am only to take them Mon through Fri! I can do this! Just don't take them away until I can lose enough so I NEVER go back!! And please God make this hip better so I can keep up with the exercise too. I cannot go to the pool today, too much pain! So I will rest the hip today and go to the game tonight.. that is enough for one day.. Hopefully tomorrow the pool. I need to go to the store soon..... but just not up to it!! Think I'll go lay down on the bed a while....... I've had a pretty rough day! Wasn't too bad this am but after coming home and sitting here too long the pain was excruciating. Spent a lot of time in bed! Not much time eating anything I'm afraid. Too hard to stand to cook, or clean up.. I will go to the game(s) tonight and we'll see how long I last! I promise not to turn off the lights when I leave this time! lol If I have to hurt, at least I can hurt at the stadium where I get distracted by the game and my friends!! lol at home it's just me feeling sorry for myself and the puppies trying to comfort me! Just figured out if I run 60 laps in the pool, taking the lowest measurements, I'm running just over a mile!! WOO HOO and doing that 3 times a week!! No wonder I've lost 30 pounds! hehehe my doc was happy..... but not as happy as I am I am so tempted to say screw it and take my more potent pain meds... I honestly expected to have less pain not MORE!! I honestly wish I had my walker in the house! I'm wondering if I'll even be able to walk with that tonight? I MEAN this is really bad. I have to keep reminding myself about the money.... lol how much is pain worth? If it doesn't start getting better tomorrow I'm going to call the nurse and see if this is normal or what?? Praying I can get to the game and see at least the end of yest game and most of tonights!! Another beautiful day in Paradise! humidity should be dropping and even though it's hot it should be nice. I AM going to the pool today!
Last night was rather disappointing. First I was unable to use my seat as it was a NO PAIN MEDs day! Sat on my walker on the concourse above my seat. Actually it's a great place to sit, high up, lots of nice coollng breezes, and got to see so many more people BUT they were also a huge distraction and I know I missed a lot of the game! Second my dear friend Smirna Flores was nowhere to be found and I noticed her amazing fiance Rossmel Perez was not in the dugout!WHAT??? When Josh Gaytold me Ross had been moved UP to AAA, to the Louisville Bats, I had terrible mixed feelings... I will miss those 2 very much but I am SO PROUD of Ross!! He's been playing amazing ball lately and truly deserves to move up! Congrats dear man and know I love you and still pray for you both.. hugs Third the Bay Bears were relentless and we could not get a break! 4 of their runs were from 3 Homers! The Wahoos were loaded for Bear but just could never get a man around. Except for a home run by Travis Mattair (I think) I don't think anyone got beyond 2nd if there... was very sad. My man Drew Hayes pitched very well again although I had left and only heard on the radio. SO I have great expectations for today! I believe the injection I get at 3 today WILL be the medication and will relieve me of this pain! I believe I will feel well enough to sit in my seat again. but mostly I BELIEVE the Pensacola Blue Wahoos are going to WIN! GO WAHOOS!!! WHEW! went out to fill the bird feeder and decided to water while out there. I rescued the last, I think, tomato which was covered with those spidery bugs. I washed them off before I picked it! ick! I water anyway but I think they have destroyed my plants. only a couple flowers left so might get more but no 7dust I will plant more seed to grow more on the porch this fall and winter! All the other plants and flowers are doing well, as long as I water them, but OH MY do they need repotting!! Praying this hip pain will go away today! I truly want to take care of my garden better. A couple more peppers and maybe 2 cukes left... lettuce has gone to flowering! lol I have been so neglectful... you can imagine what my house looks like! YUCK! Beautiful bright cardinal is back and here come the little guys too. A mourning dove beneath the feeder to catch the droppings! lol Can you believe it??? Puppies are harrassing me to love on them! lol so off to the bed we go for a bit, ease up my hip before heading for the pool... Hip stuff update! After 2 days without ANY pain meds I got to the appt okay. First some questions about my pain levels etc. then more XRays on the right hip. When I finally got into the paper, yes paper, shorts I was ready and already exhausted. The procedure wasn't fun but with God's help I got through it! The doc was awesome and kept me distracted by talking BASEBALL!!! LOL Knowing I was onmy way to the game after, I had worn FULL baseball gear... so all during the xrays and procedure I was WAHOOING! Doc said I might be sore from the needle in my hip! YUP he was right! I had to use the walker again and my right leg kept feeling like it didn't want to hold me up! lol IF I got the meds I might not know it for a couple weeks.. not like the cordisone shot I got in May which made a huge difference immediately! And boy howdy was I SORE. But I was able to get back on the xstrength Tylonal and that is helping. I'm praying so hard that I got the right stuff, not feeling it yet, as it would help me avoid surgery until next year! I have no one to help me right now and cannot have surgery!! I can go to a rehab, no problem. But if I did that my puppies would have no one to care for them... cannot afford to board them for maybe 6 weeks! Let alone thinking of them in a cage....... makes me heart sick! So no matter what I cannot have surgery for a while.. if ever. Somehow I feel a lot like I did when Oscar was in the hospital. I will admit I am not a hospital person! I honestly cannot say why. I am not comfortable visiting people in the hospital even though I know how much it means to them. It is very difficult for me to make myself go. Oscar and I were okay with it. He was great at visiting people in hosp. Even though he would only come to see me once a day for an hour or so when I was in. I didn't mind. I can totally understand. And he took such good care of me when I went home from my surgery...
When he went in the ambulance I didn't go. I waited until he called me with his room number and told me what was up! Now it sounds awful! When Oscar was in the ICU I would get there a few minutes before they let people in. I saw whole families camped out in the waiting room. I MEAN camped out! One of Oscar's roommates when he wasn't in ICU had a wife that stayed from dawn until dusk! She moved in with her knitting, books, etc. That was not our way. I remember when my roommate had blood clots and I spent the whole day in hosp with her, again playing cards etc. The nurses were delighted with me, as I would cater to my friend's needs and also to her roommates who had only 1 leg. I would help them both get on and off the potty by their beds. My friend had blood clots and was not to stand up, had to keep her legs on the bed when she slid over on the potty, or "horrors" use a bed pan. So what happened to me? Why am I not willing to do that anymore? My granddaughters are with their mother 24 X 7. If it were me in there I would not let them do that! I know they want to be with her until the end. I admire them so much for their strength. But even caregivers have to take care of themselves. I am facing hip surgery. I hope that my granddaughter Tifani will come to help me. But I am going to ask her not to come until I'm ready to come home. I have folks that can take care of the dogs until I get home. Anyway, is something wrong with me that I'm not a hospital 'hanger oner'?? I've been reading all the information about the research study program I hope to enroll in tomorrow. I truly believe that God put this in my path for a reason.. But in reading the info I find that only Tylonal is acceptable as pain medication! WOW!! I've been using much stronger stuff than that and still have pain. I need that money so badly! I have to try this. I pray that I will receive the medication and not the placebo... lol will not know. But if this works it could help me avoid surgery for a while. If not, surgery will be emminnent after the study. God be with me and help me deal with the pain.
I actually had a very good day today! Took my cane to docs this am but really didn't need it! But now after sitting on this awful couch my hip is sore again. I have to find me a better seat! Been posting on facebook for 2 days asking prayer for my daughter Jamie to ask Jesus to forgive her sins, and He promises he will. Then I will know she will be with her brother Billy and sister Jodi in Heaven...
I even had 2 dear friends visit Jamie and talk to her about it. She told them, and I knew it, that she just could not forgive God for taking Jodi and leaving behind those 6 kids, the youngest 3. I know a lot of her depression began when Jodi died. So when I said something to Amy on the phone her comment was, "everyone has their own opinion!" YIKE!! This is not my opinion! This is what The Bible tells me! The only way to eternal life is through the blood of Jesus!! ONLY WAY! and it's a free gift if you just ask Jesus to forgive your sins... done! Jamie will not go back to her old ways, it's impossible... at least we hope so! She will never get any better.. that is a given. And she could get worse faster than we think.... I know that Amy is under a great deal of stress right now. Both she and Tifani are struggling with the responsibility if their mother's end of life whether a week, a month??? So I can be understanding... still praying for Jamie to find it in her heart to do this! WAHOO!! Kazoo made it to the championship round!! So proud of my buddy! The little shower has turned into a good soaking rain!! Thank you God!! I did not want to have to water today.... so glad I have nowhere to go tonight! They are moving Jamie back out of ICU! That is a good thing.. her poor girls are really going through a tough time.. what a godsend they are to their mother and to me in absentia! Florida Afternoon thunder shower ritual!! haul behind to bedroom, fling open the window and enjoy listening to the angels tap dancing on the awning!! You might think I'm nuts but at least the dogs KNOW I am!! lol but they go with me anyway! LOL Thank you Jesus!!! I just spoke to my friends in Corpus and they told me about the visit with my girls... I KNOW! without a doubt! That Jamie will think about this strongly and that the Holy Spirit in her will help her realize all she needs to do is ask for forgiveness! Even with her last breath! And I know her sister on the other side is working on it too!! I am so blessed to have friends I can call on during times like this!!! I also know that God will bless them so much for doing this for me and my girls! Now I need to go rest........... bbs Had to turn on the ac today.... it was bound to happen after all it is August! 90s for highs and upper 70s for lows... we are all more comfy now.. Feeling kinda sleepy........ why??? Hmmmm could it be my interrupted night and lack of sleep?? Might need a nap today instead of a workout! Home again, home again, jiggety jig!! Daughter Jamie is heavy on my heart. I scrolled down my wall but nothing from the girls... thank you Jesus I'm patient! My friend should be at the hospital about this time, or have been recently, and God has given me peace about the visit! I have good news!! No blood work for 6 mos!! My diabetes is in very good shape, A1C (I think they call it) was down again! I've lost a total of 25 pounds since I was there in Jan! and 20 in the past 3 mos! Thyroid is fine without any medications! My goal is to get totally rid of the diabetes!! It can happen! Heather was very happy with me today! And I am very proud of me! Used the gift card I won at the ballgame and now my car is 3/4 full!! Thank you God! I splurged and bought a few things at the store, quite a few actually, for under $20! I feel very good about all of this! I keep remembering the night Jim and Jamie were born........ stayed up all night watching the snow fall outside my window!! April 15th.. Jim was chubby with blonde curls, Jamie was lanky and bald for months!! Needless to say I cut his hair! Even with a dress on they thought she was the boy and he the girl!! sheeeeeeeeeeesh Five of my HS grad class also had twins. We'd get together and have a parade, walking our buggies together!! Whew doggies I'm so glad I can multitask!! Reds on TV and Wahoos on radio!!! Very tired tonight.. not much sleep, busy day... and tomorrow the same. End of week will be unbelievable!! So headed for bed. A very exciting start to my day! I managed to get out early and pick up my meds at the base pharmacy.. taking the little guys along.. read more about that on their page.
Had missed a phone call from my granddaughter which said "We have good news!" Called back and thanks to speaker phone, I got both girls! Praise God! They have found help for their mother, my eldest daughter, in getting her moved to a different facility. Jamie has to leave the hospital as they cannot do anything more for her now.. But she is not able to be on her own at this point. Adult Protective Services will help the girls to make sure Jamie is taken care of. So much less stress for them! I'm so grateful to God! Jamie will not get any better! However, she can live a productive life if she works hard at getting to the best she can be! Tifani said today "she doesn't have much time, she's dying." Well Tifani, we are all dying. It begins when we are born! And only God can decide when that will happen... no doctor can be sure if or when it will.... even at the very end! So that was the first good news! Then while I was talking to them I said "I wish the 3 of us could get together just for fun!" And Amy pipes up! She said that last year when I wanted them all for Thanksgiving, it wasn't a good year because the kids were with their father. But this year she has them and they plan on coming in NOV!! OMG I am so excited! more in a post below. Then I got to the pool and had an okay workout! nothing great but that's okay, I still got 40 minutes in and did 45 good one yest. I was watching the storm clouds coming in and wanted to be home before they got here but how I still see sunshine? I'm counting on rain today, 50% they say, to water my garden and so I can keep the ac off, I got through yesterday without it. While I was in the laundry room putting the bedding in, I got on the scale to see how much I had gained.. 255 was on the scale and I had to drop it another pound!! WOW 254.. That is down from 277 on Jan 1st... up and down some after that until I went to Dr. Axley for help and was 274 first visit, then 264 the next time... won't he just chit if I'm 254 next week!! LOL Prolly will be with my clothes on. I saw a lot of cars at the church in the next block when I got home and sure enough, the funeral just passed by my home. Thank God they have good weather for it so far today. God be with that family. A new month, so many things going on. So many thoughts in my mind.. I am going to stop using Facebook as my blog, then copying it all here, and just post here and those who wish to, can come read..
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