Since he went into the hospital the last time on Valentine's Day I had a real problem that day.. wasn't even able to go to church. I know that seems like the cowards's way.
I find it difficult to remember one year ago today when at this time I was lying in the hospital in so much pain waiting for them to take me to surgery. I am so grateful that that horrible pain is gone. I still have pain every day but pain is a part of life when you are old.
Five years ago today my beloved Oscar went home to be with the Lord. For some reason it is more difficult for me to deal with this year than in the past five.
I am so grateful that God and Oscar have given me the security of knowing that my beloved is in Heaven with the Lord and his family. Oscar's parents were very important to him and I know they are together again. I know that the Princess Mishka III and my Little Miss Renniew are also with their daddy and all are running and romping together in beautiful fields... God has given me that vision.
I have such peace in my heart and soul that all is well. That my daughters are also in Heaven with their brother. My daughter Jodi had a deep faith and was very ready to meet the Lord. My daughter Jamie was struggling with life, but I must believe that at the end, with the help of my dear friends Albert and Cece Cox, she also made her peace with the Lord and joined Jodi and my sweet William Joseph, who only lived here on earth for 45 min.
I'm not positive about my parents. I do not know what their relationship with the Lord was, or if they had one. But I pray they also had the opportunity to make peace and are in Heaven.
I do know that one day I will be welcomed into the arms of my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ! The only thing I want to get out of this life on earth is to hear, "Welcome home, my good and faithful servant!"