"Paul writes in Galatians 5 that those who walk in strep with the Spirit are marked by "love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control." " Our Daily Bread for Tuesday, March 28, 2017.
As hard as I try I fail miserably to keep all the fruits of the Spirit, but the one I do battle with every day? self-control. I've asked God over and over why that one is so hard for me.
At the beginning of every year I set my goal of not 'overspending', of staying within my meager means. Which I must admit is very difficult at best. But the 'drive-tru' visits, the little 'extras' at the grocery store, buying clothing new instead of always going to the thrift shop, etc. etc. etc.
Last fall I went bananas! I was doing such a good job paying all my bills my credit cards gave me increases I didn't ask for. And I will admit I applied to others and they gave me the credit. I have always been very long on credit and short on income.
So when I was diagnosed with digestive problems last year, when I had to make life changes that were upsetting to me, I admit I got depressed and went on a spending spree. Now understand, I only buy things when they are on sale and always get free shipping, or I don't buy! I cannot excuse my lack of self-control because I am a wise shopper.
OH, I didn't buy anything that I didn't really need. Well, maybe a couple things, but mostly it was things to help me with my daily life in spite of my physical problems. And they did. I am now able to eat properly for my disorder. Anyway, my self-control is lacking when it comes to finances.
But also at other times when I get down, or even depressed about my physical problems and literally say "The Hell With It" and buy what I want, treat myself, etc. And yes, if I don't get a handle on my spending and sometimes my eating, I'll probably end up in Hell.
I covet your prayers for me in this matter.... thank you.
Another study gave me this direction:
"Today try to find a quiet moment to lose yourself in Jesus so much that everything around you fades away and His presence fills you to the brim with love, joy, and peace." Mornings with Jesus
I want to do this everyday! I get close on my porch with my coffee and Bible. Listening to the birds sing and watching some of them at the feeder. What a blessing it is to be able to feed God's critters.
In reading this over, I try to say "don't be so hard on yourself" but in actuality if I'm not hard on myself, how will I ever be the person God wants me to be?
Those fruits of the Spirit are within me, a wonderful gift from God. If I can show them to others through my love for them, my joy of God and His creations, etc. then I must do better with the self-control. It's not good enough to say I'm doing as well as I can. I need to try harder and I have been... but only with God's help.