Dear Lord, how can I thank You for letting me see another new year? A new chance to get it right! A new chance to get closer to You!
2018 was a really good year, full of blessings and love. You took such good care of me. Especially through your angels here on earth. I anticipate that 2019 will be as good or even better. Making the transition from being a 'giver' to being a 'receiver' has been difficult at times, but almost as rewarding. I have to look at it as giving others the opportunity to be the cheerful givers! I am so thankful, so grateful for another year with my babies. I believe you will provide so I can take the best care of them. I hope Buddy can stay and I can afford to keep him. Please keep your healing hand on Tequila and help me to get his medicine into him. Lord, I am in a much better place this year than I was last year. Physically, mentally and spiritually. My prayer is for a way to help my finances. I am so grateful for the little increase and am not ungrateful. You know I don't make resolutions, but I do make myself promises and strive to keep them. Last year I tried, but didn't succeed well, to stay away from 'fast food' places. This year I'm starting with almost all the groceries I need and the energy and enthusiasm to cook! Last year I had to stop and rest during and between chores. This year I can get so much more accomplished before I have to rest. I pray I can keep that up and maybe get better. Lord, You know my needs and I know you will provide everything I need, when I need it, if not when I think I need it or as much as I think I need. Give me a contentment and joy with what I have and take away my desire to have more that I don't need. My greatest prayer is that my family and friends have a year of good health, prosperity, and love. Amen I have so much to be thankful for. Just waking up each day and being able to get up and take care of myself and my two little ones, what a blessing!
Not that I'm not ready, and some days eager, to go home and be with you forever. I truly am. Some days I do not understand why I'm still here. Lord, you know my needs! I would list them but I'd soon run out of space. From groceries and supplies to clothing and shoes! I'm at a point where I need it all.. I just want to thank you in advance for your help. You always send me your earthly angels to take care of me and that is such a blessing. Not just the gifts but also the love that always comes with it. I always was a giver, the one who helped others. Whether with a place to stay, a meal, whatever I could help with. Now, Lord, I find myself in the receiver end. It's not nearly as comfortable as being a giver. You tell us in your word, The Bible, that we are to be cheerful givers. You never say anything about being receivers. My understanding, and I hope I'm correct, is that someone has to be a receiver in order for others to be cheerful givers. So I will take that role with the knowledge that you love me so much! God I need your help so much. I have major things to do around the house.. wash windows, spray the mold, mop floors, etc. These things are painful for me with my back problem. Please help me do these things with minimal pain. As long as you want me here I will stay and continue with the struggle and do the only thing I can.. pray, especially for others. I love you so much God! Amen Dear Lord, thank you so much for today! I know you have forgiven me for struggling with despair and defeat last week. My heart would not allow me to get completely overtaken but I did come close. Your forgiveness is such a blessing.
Thank you for that amazing young man who not only agreed to help me fix my car but today gave me the money to get the wiper blades and headlight. That was a shock! It was the beginning of the healing of my blackened heart. Then not only the blessing of seeing the Chumley family in church but having Ted deliver a message that I did so need today! It only made me feel more guilty for last week. I'm still broke. I still do not see how I'm going to pay all my bills next week. I'm still concerned that I won't be able to get through the entire 14 hours on election day. But I STILL know in my heart that you are in control and everything will be okay. Lord, I've finally learned that you do come through even in the 11th hour. Please help me to avoid going through a week like last week again. I can only get through these troubled times with your help. I'd say I don't understand why I have to struggle like I do, but I don't need to understand it. I only need to hold your hand and get through it. Thank you for your love. Thank you for your guidance. Help me to try harder to follow the path you want for me. In Jesus name, Amen I truly need your help. You know my needs, you know my heart. And you know my mistakes. I guess I made another one. I should have learned that nothing is free. I have a pending payment in my checking account for $66 with a balance of $3 and no way to get any more income for 2 weeks!
I have a power bill for $156 that I won't be able to pay and now I had to turn on the ac because I was having problems breathing, even with my inhaler. I don't think it was the heat, 85 in here, but the humidity. It's been on about half an hour and I'm already breathing better. Lord, you know I am willing to do whatever it is YOU want me to do. I've tried to get info on the Foster Grandparent program which would give me enough money each week to get through the winter, I believe. I haven't gotten the info yet. God, I KNOW you are in control. I know you have my back and will never let me down. In 78 years you never have even when I've hurt and disappointed you, and myself. I am completely confident that this will be taken care of. Somehow I don't believe that you want me to be struggling as much as I am. I am a child of God and the heir of all things good! Satan will never change my heart again. I used to have panic attacks when my situations became desperate.. no more! Thank you Lord for taking care of me and loving me. Thank you for taking away all my sins. I ONLY want to walk the path you want me to walk. Please guide and direct my steps in that way. I love you Lord with all my heart and soul, Amen Dear Father God,
So many people are conflicted and being judgmental. I am so very grateful that YOU forgive our past. You know that mine was not always making you smile, but I never stopped loving you and trying to stay close. The hardest part was forgiving myself even knowing that you had already forgiven me. All the drama going on in DC is disheartening. The battle between factors is horrendous in my opinion. They seem to have lost the basic principles of 'innocent until proven guilty' and lately have been judging people before hearing the truth. And listening to the media for the truth is a joke! God, this is not the country I love. This is not the country where I grew up, where respect and dignity prevail. I know there are many people in this country who are sending up prayers for you to heal the USA. I also know that with so many keeping you out of public life makes it difficult for you to do so. God I know you can do ANYTHING! The only way we can change this is for everyone who loves you and believes in you will go to the polls and vote the right people in. Who will keep the HATERS out! God you can move in the hearts of your people and guide them to the polls. PLEASE, help everyone who loves you to register and vote. Vote for candidates who also love you and will do right. We MUST get rid of the haters, God. You want everyone to live in love and so do I. Thank you for the wonderful, overwhelming love you have blessed me with in my life. All I want to do is love everyone as you want me to. You know my heart, Lord, so you know how much I love you and how desperately I want to hear "welcome home my good and faithful servant" when I get to Heaven. Amen Dear Lord,
First let me thank You for all the many blessings you have given to me.. all the love from your angels who appear as my family and friends. My summer was overwhelming with love.. and it still is. You know my needs. I asked for help and you gave me the opportunity to work part time at the stadium. It truly got me through the summer, as did having the Chacin family stay with me. What a blessing that was! Lord, I have been asking for the chance to earn the extra income I so badly need. For the money to repair my car, take care of my dogs, replenish my larder! The summer job helped me do that. Now, Lord, I am asking for your help in my transportation. I NEED reliable, safe transportation. A vehicle high enough for me to easily get into with my disabilities. I know you are on this! Amen Dear Heavenly Father,
It seems each day that I come here I only have more and more to be thankful for. And I am NOT complaining. You and I know I haven't been really taking care of myself this summer and I truly expected to find problems in my blood work and bone density test. NOT! Bone test was perfect, no change in 2 years. Kidney function amazing, A1C 5.9, everything really good. I only need to get back on cholesterol meds and double the vit D. I also need to buy Calcium, Horse Chestnut and potassium. Also need to fill scripts soon. All in all I am very happy with my medical results. More to come next week. I know you are working on my tranportation problem. Also on my additional income problem. I am trying to listen to your still small voice to tell me what I am to do, What is my part in this? Once again I ask you to be with all my family and friends. Touch them with your healing touch in whatever need they have. But mostly, God, I want to Praise you and thank you for all the many, many blessings.. the overwhelming love I receive from family and friends, my doctors, my coworkers and even those I don't know.. I am truly, truly blessed. AMEN |