This morning my Bible study took me to Romans 8, but after reading the lesson for today, I went on to read the passages 22 to 39 as I had highlighted and underlined many of that passage.
When I read Romans 8:37-39 I realized a very important thing for me.... it was probably God speaking to me through the Spirit in my heart.
It reads: "No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us, For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."(NIV)
What did God nudge me in my heart and mind?
Even I myself cannot separate me from the love of God!
When I think back on my youth, not just my teen years but also the years when I was raising my five children, when I was supposed to be an adult, I did many things that could easily have separated me from God! I don't think back on that time of my life much, not very proud of everything I did. However, I know that in all that time God NEVER stopped loving me! Even during the times when I didn't love myself very much. I don't know how patiently, but I do know that God simply waited until I was through with all the ridiculous behavior until I decided to truly repent and change.
I need to stress here though that in all that time, when my choices and behaviors were truly not the best, I managed to get all five of my children to church pretty much every Sunday, early service and sitting in the front row!! Not for show, but because I told them that if they misbehaved the entire congregation would see it. I know one thing for certain: I could never have raised five children on my own without God's help. I knew it then and I know it now. But it was definitely a period of my life when they were supposed to "do as I say and not as I do."
I had to work hard to raise five children on my own most of the time. And because of my poor choices in partners, and sometimes husbands, I would end up supporting them too.
It wasn't until I made the decision to 'grow up' in my faith and in my life that God responded with the biggest blessing of all.
When God put Oscar into my life, with the definite intent of our being married, he not only gave me 10 of the best years of my life but also took care of me for the rest of my life. I am so blessed.
When I stopped 'choosing' my husbands God sent me the perfect one for many reasons..
Thank you my Lord for the great blessing of my beloved Oscar. For 10 years I knew real love, and some problems of course, but we had a good time together and ended up here in Pensacola where I am so happy. Thank you for never stopping to love me, even during those times I'm sure I wasn't very lovable in your eyes. I love you with all my being and am so grateful for your unending and unconditional love.
Ame-
When I read Romans 8:37-39 I realized a very important thing for me.... it was probably God speaking to me through the Spirit in my heart.
It reads: "No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us, For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."(NIV)
What did God nudge me in my heart and mind?
Even I myself cannot separate me from the love of God!
When I think back on my youth, not just my teen years but also the years when I was raising my five children, when I was supposed to be an adult, I did many things that could easily have separated me from God! I don't think back on that time of my life much, not very proud of everything I did. However, I know that in all that time God NEVER stopped loving me! Even during the times when I didn't love myself very much. I don't know how patiently, but I do know that God simply waited until I was through with all the ridiculous behavior until I decided to truly repent and change.
I need to stress here though that in all that time, when my choices and behaviors were truly not the best, I managed to get all five of my children to church pretty much every Sunday, early service and sitting in the front row!! Not for show, but because I told them that if they misbehaved the entire congregation would see it. I know one thing for certain: I could never have raised five children on my own without God's help. I knew it then and I know it now. But it was definitely a period of my life when they were supposed to "do as I say and not as I do."
I had to work hard to raise five children on my own most of the time. And because of my poor choices in partners, and sometimes husbands, I would end up supporting them too.
It wasn't until I made the decision to 'grow up' in my faith and in my life that God responded with the biggest blessing of all.
When God put Oscar into my life, with the definite intent of our being married, he not only gave me 10 of the best years of my life but also took care of me for the rest of my life. I am so blessed.
When I stopped 'choosing' my husbands God sent me the perfect one for many reasons..
Thank you my Lord for the great blessing of my beloved Oscar. For 10 years I knew real love, and some problems of course, but we had a good time together and ended up here in Pensacola where I am so happy. Thank you for never stopping to love me, even during those times I'm sure I wasn't very lovable in your eyes. I love you with all my being and am so grateful for your unending and unconditional love.
Ame-