I'm now an octogenarian, and with 'search' I can even spell it! Eighty years old! WOW Who'da thunk it?
And thus my body has been breaking down for a few years now. I live in constant pain, except when I'm lying down mostly. It's caused by a spinal issue, I have an L5 problem, and docs say they cannot relieve it with surgery! GREAT!! I sure don't want to go through any of that anymore! Two fake knees and a fake hip, new eyes, etc. etc. I literally have no one to take care of me. Besides, the only surgeon I trust retired, God Bless him. They want to 'insert' a tens machine in my back? WHAT? No way, Jose! (is that a racial slur?) I wouldn't mind one on the outside maybe? I'm not supposed to take ANY pain relievers orally. I do have pain gel but it doesn't get it for my back much. A few months ago I started the HempOil process, for me and Mr. T, and it has relieved probably all of my arthritis pain, but of course cannot fix a broken vertebrae eh?
Every day when I get up and painfully start my way to the bathroom I thank God for another day and pray I won't fall today!
Before I open my eyes I realize I really do not want to get up and face another painful day.. But my old lady's bladder says I must!!
Then there are my 3 adorable side kicks who also have full bladders and empty stomachs. God I do love them so much. They are the main reason I do get up, bladder be damned!
I manage to let them out, fix them breakfast and coffee for me. Most mornings I must close my eyes when entering the kitchen! I do SO want to get it clean, even dream about it yes?, however, I have to choose what things I can ask my body of. Am wanting to paint a sign saying "My kitchen was clean last week. Sorry you missed it!"
For the first time in several years I have a decent amount of food in my house! Now if I could just be eased of the pain to allow me to stand so I can cook! I admit I have relied too much on food delivery that I truly cannot afford. But it's less painful to take my walker to the porch and haul everything in on the seat! And no clean up!
TRUTH:
When I order groceries and supplies I do it online and have it delivered. This started before the 'lock down' when Wally World offered a free delivery if you signed up for a year. By the time I had to pay I was staying at home so I didn't ask for a refund for my $98! Boy Howdy am I glad I didn't cancel! I cannot always get everything I need that way but it's kept me fed and cared for. The only snafu is that my particular store won't honor gift cards online and I have $50 I need to spend but not enough to go inside the store!
I have always loved my front porch, which is glassed and screened in. I need to keep a couple windows open, the ones with awnings to keep out the rain, as it can get as hot as 100 degrees out there!
So I have everything I've ordered, packages, groceries, food deliveries, brought in the porch and put on the table out there. I take my walker and my 'wipes' and wipe everything down before I bring it in the house, hauling stuff in the walker! EZPZ!! The glass 'storm' door between living room and porch keeps me safe from their germs, I believe!
I am SO blessed, and you will read this often here and on Facebook et al. Thank You Jesus for another day, for another chance to get it right, for your precious blood that cleanses me as I don't always get it right eh? And mostly thank you for my amazing, loving friends and family which includes my 3 adorables.
Amen