Feel better this morning and giving it all to God today. I have some serious decisions to make, and soon... thanks!
Always believe that the closer I get to God's will the more Satan attacks me. Prayers please! Last night Satan had hold of my mind and would not let go! I struggled to focus on Jesus, and finally fell asleep but still had upsetting dreams. I knew it wasn't from my heart as I could feel the Holy Spirit helping me do battle. It was all in my head!! YIKES!!
Feel better this morning and giving it all to God today. I have some serious decisions to make, and soon... thanks!
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I PLAY GAMES ON THE COMPUTER!!
I could almost say I am addicted to playing games. However, the games I play especially in the morning are to waken my feeble little brain and keep it sharp! I play at least 2 crosswords a day I play 3 'seek and find' games almost every day: Pearl's Peril, Seekers Notes, and June's Journey. I have played these for years! They really keep me thinking as new items pop up in the scenes and sometimes they'll call something by a different name in a different scene. I'm very proud that I do this.. not proud that I do it too much! I play cards games for fun and skill. Spider Solitaire, Cribbage, Euchre and sometimes others. These I do play on my phone when I'm waiting somewhere. I also play Words with Friends to keep my voculabulary fresh and the words current in my brain. NEVER cheat with a dictionary. I don't care if I win but I do strive to do so. Had a few folks won't play me anymore.. sad. Lastly I play Jigsaw world on Facebook. This one I don't always play every day but love it! It allows me to create puzzles from pics and when I get something exciting on FB I will make a puzzle. I am very proud of my gameplaying! I am very proud that at 80 I can still do them! Sometimes it's more difficult to use my hands than my brain! As most of us do these days, I have way too much time on my hands.
I have decided that "Carol Wright", "Harriet Carter", and "Dr. Leonard" are all related and live together at Monroe and Main! Takes a certain person to understand this I'm afraid!! But trust me it is funny! When it's my turn to go home to the Lord please don't weep for me! It's okay to feel sad! Weep for yourself. It's okay to miss me, however here I am now, where are you?? I will be so much more loved than ever could be on Earth! I will be reunited with my beloved Oscar, my bestie Mary Daniel, my precious fur babies.. my other Christian friends and family. I WILL BE FINE!
Knowing from experience that you will be sad and that's okay. but try to focus on me, not you. Think of me no longer in pain, no longer hungering and thirsting. No longer a wrinkled old lady. I will have a new persona that is glorious! I will have my voice back and will be singing with the angels, and Mary! Go ahead and be sad, however, do not allow it to take over for long. Life is precious and God is good! You want to see me again? SURE! All it takes is inviting Jesus into your heart, fully!! Repenting to Him for your sins, known and unknown. Believing with ALL your heart that Jesus is the only way to Heaven and through his precious sacrifice and blood I am, and you will be, saved and given eternal life! How do you do this? EASY PEASY! Open your Bible and begin reading! READ daily! Read with an open mind and an open heart. Believe what our Lord tells us in black and white! I wonder sometimes why some folks just don't get it, eh? They make time to work, play, eat, sleep... why can't they make the time to be with the Lord? In my home and in my car I ONLY listen to KLOVE on the radio! Sometimes I don't even listen, but later on I find I know all the words.. maybe I'm listening with my heart? I challenge everyone to only turn to KLOVE radio for 30 days and I promise it will change your life, or at least your heart. I do so want to see you all in Heaven.. Praying especially for those with hatred in their hearts!! God touch their hearts as only you can do. Heal our land! Amen Knowing someone has a good relationship with Jesus is a great comfort to me when they go 'home.' This darn Covid19 disease took away so much, including baseball which is SO MUCH more than a game, a past time, etc. It is a place where I always feel loved. Where I get more hugs every summer than I do the whole rest of the year! And now when one of the very best of the best leaves this earth, and I didn't get a chance to say adiou, it's heart breaking. For all my baseball 'family' out there please know that I miss YOU more than I do the game and trust me I miss the game terribly!! RIP my dear friend David, I know you are surrounded by love...
FACTS:
I'm now an octogenarian, and with 'search' I can even spell it! Eighty years old! WOW Who'da thunk it? And thus my body has been breaking down for a few years now. I live in constant pain, except when I'm lying down mostly. It's caused by a spinal issue, I have an L5 problem, and docs say they cannot relieve it with surgery! GREAT!! I sure don't want to go through any of that anymore! Two fake knees and a fake hip, new eyes, etc. etc. I literally have no one to take care of me. Besides, the only surgeon I trust retired, God Bless him. They want to 'insert' a tens machine in my back? WHAT? No way, Jose! (is that a racial slur?) I wouldn't mind one on the outside maybe? I'm not supposed to take ANY pain relievers orally. I do have pain gel but it doesn't get it for my back much. A few months ago I started the HempOil process, for me and Mr. T, and it has relieved probably all of my arthritis pain, but of course cannot fix a broken vertebrae eh? Every day when I get up and painfully start my way to the bathroom I thank God for another day and pray I won't fall today! Before I open my eyes I realize I really do not want to get up and face another painful day.. But my old lady's bladder says I must!! Then there are my 3 adorable side kicks who also have full bladders and empty stomachs. God I do love them so much. They are the main reason I do get up, bladder be damned! I manage to let them out, fix them breakfast and coffee for me. Most mornings I must close my eyes when entering the kitchen! I do SO want to get it clean, even dream about it yes?, however, I have to choose what things I can ask my body of. Am wanting to paint a sign saying "My kitchen was clean last week. Sorry you missed it!" For the first time in several years I have a decent amount of food in my house! Now if I could just be eased of the pain to allow me to stand so I can cook! I admit I have relied too much on food delivery that I truly cannot afford. But it's less painful to take my walker to the porch and haul everything in on the seat! And no clean up! TRUTH: When I order groceries and supplies I do it online and have it delivered. This started before the 'lock down' when Wally World offered a free delivery if you signed up for a year. By the time I had to pay I was staying at home so I didn't ask for a refund for my $98! Boy Howdy am I glad I didn't cancel! I cannot always get everything I need that way but it's kept me fed and cared for. The only snafu is that my particular store won't honor gift cards online and I have $50 I need to spend but not enough to go inside the store! I have always loved my front porch, which is glassed and screened in. I need to keep a couple windows open, the ones with awnings to keep out the rain, as it can get as hot as 100 degrees out there! So I have everything I've ordered, packages, groceries, food deliveries, brought in the porch and put on the table out there. I take my walker and my 'wipes' and wipe everything down before I bring it in the house, hauling stuff in the walker! EZPZ!! The glass 'storm' door between living room and porch keeps me safe from their germs, I believe! I am SO blessed, and you will read this often here and on Facebook et al. Thank You Jesus for another day, for another chance to get it right, for your precious blood that cleanses me as I don't always get it right eh? And mostly thank you for my amazing, loving friends and family which includes my 3 adorables. Amen Wow! Here we are nearing the end of July! Life has been SO different and crazy since I posted here last. The world is now in a pandemic with COVID19, a truly deadly problem. Just heard that our county had 5 more deaths since yest. It's the first thing you hear about when you turn on the news.. I am staying away from the news as much as possible.
There isn't much good to say. In the depth of summer in Florida and that only means HOT! Thank You, Lord, for air conditioning. Especially this past week or so I've been dealing with major sciatica, to the point where I can barely walk and never without pain.. I'm so far behind on my house keeping I think I'm ahead. In fact, I'm about to head back to bed where the pain is much less. More and more family and friends in need of prayer every day! I am so blessed to be able to pray for them. We all thought this devastating disaster would be on the wane by now, but NO.. it's still increasing and looks to be a real problem for some time to come. I am SO proud of myself and so grateful to God!
One year ago I was unable to set up my Christmas display! Physically, mentally and emotionally. I did put out some lights, and then had one of the laser lights stolen, which turned out to be a blessing. But this year I was able to get it all out and set it up, and it made me happy. The best part this weekend was taking it all down, boxing it up and hauling it to the shed. Took 2 days and 3 long trips back and forth to the shed but it's done! And I'm not as sore as I thought I'd be. But it did show me how 'out of shape' I am. I do want to lose weight, but mostly I want to get back to the gym so I can get in better shape, get stronger. That is my goal and my prayer for 2019. I've been working the elections in the same precinct for several years.. I have pins from 2004! I do so enjoy the job, love seeing old friends and neighbors again.
But my body is tiring. It's a grueling 14 hour day! Can be very stressful if/when things go wrong. We had a record breaking amount of voters who mailed in their ballots as I did or went to early voting places. That should tell us we won't be that busy tomorrow, however, I am most certain that the turnout will be huge and intense. If I didn't need the money so badly I would definitely NOT do it anymore. I cannot see myself doing this in 2 years, that's for sure. I will need all the strength and courage tomorrow and a lot of prayers! 🙏🙏🙏Confession! 🙏🙏🙏
When you get old it's like preparing for your finals in college, You start 'cramming' for the test eh? Didn't want to say anything earlier and set myself up for failure. I've been reading "The Bible in a Year" almost every night. In my depressed week I missed a few nights and had to play catch up reading two sections at a time, but mostly this year I've read every daily section and now feel very comfortable saying I WILL finish it this year! I've tried to do it years past and always crashed and burned before I finished. Each night I read part of the Old Testament, then some of the New Testament, Psalms and finishing with Proverbs. It's wonderfully done and truly makes it easy to read the Bible completely! Some nights I want to read the next part to see what happens. Sometimes it makes me get out my Bible and read more. Most people don't realize that the Bible, especially the Old Testament, is an ongoing story, great history lesson of the time. It makes me think and consider my own life and especially how REALLY GRATEFUL that Jesus came to save me! Folks in the Old Testament didn't have that Blessed Assurance and even the writers of the gospels and the rest of the New Testament had no idea of how long Christianity would last and how far and wide it would reach. We know 'the rest of the story' and as they did back then, we need to prepare and live our life as if Jesus is coming back tomorrow. ARE YOU READY?? |
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