My Best Friend, Little Miss Renniew, passed away last night. I cannot begin to share the hurt and loneliness I'm feeling. I should say WE are feeling as Tequila is kinda lost too. I keep telling him that the 2 of us will be fine.
I'm going to copy my Facebook posts on here rather than have to write it all over again. Just PLEASE hug your little one a bit more today in loving memory of my sweet frosted face...
I don't know if anyone is out there at this hour but I had to tell you that my VERY BEST friend just died!! I'm not sure what happened. It could have been something I gave her to eat but I'm not going to beat myself up over that. All I know is she was in her basket and when I went to check on her her little head was cold, eyes closed and tongue sticking out. The rest of her body is still warmish but I could not revive her no matter how hard I tried. OMG I knew this day would come but I just cannot imagine my life without her. The little boy is okay. Not sure if he knows, but he was licking her all over earlier today... she seemed okay until after we ate. But she's gone.. and my heart is broken. My body feels weak and tears won't come. This will be the worst night ever as I know I will not be able to sleep.. tomorrow I will call the landlord and hopefully he can come and help me bury her... if not I'll call my neighbor to help.
I was trying to revive her and telling her thank you for the wonderful years we had together. That she should wait for me at the Rainbow Bridge and I'll be there soon. Just the other night I was telling her how she is my best friend. How much I love her. I know she felt loved. I am truly sick at heart!
I think I will call the drs office and cancel my appt for tomorrow... don't think I can drive or want to go anywhere now.
Thanks for listening... goodbye dear sweet Little Miss Renniew... I love you so much and always will... you truly will be missed by me and Tequila..
Nothing worse than the lifeless body of a true blue friend who was so full of life and love.... God help me make it through the night...
Tequila and I got through the night... sort of. My sweet boy slept alongside my body, cuddled in my arm, under the covers. Without him I would be truly a mess. I am not, I'm sad but fine! I kept having hallucinations thinking I heard her moving in the basket and a couple times hearing her bark. She WAS the vocal one for sure but I know I will even miss her harassing me eh? I did get some broken sleep. God blessed me with a beautiful vision of Oscar and Mishka playing in a field and turning to welcome my little girl with joy!! I KNOW she is fine! Her Daddy and her friend Mishka will take care of her.
I have no telephone. I am going to try to contact Cox via the net and see if I can get that fixed soon...
Have a blessed day.. hugs
That was very difficult.... Oh how I love that little fat girl! I removed her harness, wrapped her in a sheet after I held her and hugged her, cried a bit over her and kissed her. Then I put her little body in a plastic bag in a cardboard box. Left the box in the dog's room since I figure Tequila might want one more chance to pee on her eh? LOL When they were outside and she was peeing, he would always have to mark her pee with his, so possessive he is, and sometimes he didn't wait until she moved! Silly dogs.
Neighbor across the street, Todd, came to dig the grave for my little angel. What a relief! But it made it so much more final, yanno? I had Tequila on the lead so he could be there with us. He gave the box one sniff and that was all.
I am so blessed with wonderful people around me, and those of you who are not close but close in heart... God has always blessed me with wonderful animals in my life also..
I know I should eat something but just don't think I can so I will change into my swimsuit and go workout and find the peace I always do in the pool...
This was the second most difficult loss of a pet. The first was the morning I woke up and my little male poodle, Spice, was missing. I was putting Sugar and Baby out for the morning and heard him cry out. When I got to the front door I saw him laying in the street and was heading to get him when a pickup with a boat trailer came and as I looked into my little guys eyes they finished him off... All I could do was turn around and go back in the house. Again my next door neighbor went and got him and buried him under their lemon tree... those lemons were actually sweeter that year! I still have dreams about that morning even though it was at least 20 years ago...
How do you say thank you to someone who buries your heart??
Boy that hurt!! Took my breath away. The mailman came and she wasn't here to be my early warning system. Without her he doesn't have much interest in barking at the mail truck... Oh Renniew I miss you...
Very unusual workout! What it did mostly was make me miss my sister Sandy Jecmen-Fierce. Love the rain as long as it is not cold and there is no lightning and thunder. The last time I was in the pool in the rain she was with me and we had so much fun, like two little girls, and it was just a couple years ago. YUP it started raining on me while I was still skimming the leaves and bugs... and that proved to be useless once the rain brought down more leaves and bugs! LOL So I started with the leg work and squats, then some arm work all for about 15 min. The rain let up a bit so I started running, albeit a lot more slowly than uaual, and got a good 15 min of aerobics in.. and of course by that time the rain had stopped. I got out as I was worried about my little guy being so terribly alone now. As I was sitting in the lawn chair dripping off and trying to find my solace in that wonderful oasis that is their flower filled, fountain and wind chimes and birdsong musical back yard, I had my eyes closed and a drop of rain hit my face at the corner of my eye and ran down my face as a tear drop. When it was raining it was almost like my Lord, the angels, and perhaps my beloved Oscar and my 3 kids were crying with me..
I'm so glad I didn't linger much longer, I was gone about an hour, as when I got home my little guy came to me and was whining! I know he was lonely, missing his sissy. I keep telling him that the 2 of us will be okay.. and we will... loneliness has been a constant companion to me and he will learn that he can be okay by himself... I would like to rescue or foster another dog sometime... but no puppies, not able to handle that
I'm going to copy my Facebook posts on here rather than have to write it all over again. Just PLEASE hug your little one a bit more today in loving memory of my sweet frosted face...
I don't know if anyone is out there at this hour but I had to tell you that my VERY BEST friend just died!! I'm not sure what happened. It could have been something I gave her to eat but I'm not going to beat myself up over that. All I know is she was in her basket and when I went to check on her her little head was cold, eyes closed and tongue sticking out. The rest of her body is still warmish but I could not revive her no matter how hard I tried. OMG I knew this day would come but I just cannot imagine my life without her. The little boy is okay. Not sure if he knows, but he was licking her all over earlier today... she seemed okay until after we ate. But she's gone.. and my heart is broken. My body feels weak and tears won't come. This will be the worst night ever as I know I will not be able to sleep.. tomorrow I will call the landlord and hopefully he can come and help me bury her... if not I'll call my neighbor to help.
I was trying to revive her and telling her thank you for the wonderful years we had together. That she should wait for me at the Rainbow Bridge and I'll be there soon. Just the other night I was telling her how she is my best friend. How much I love her. I know she felt loved. I am truly sick at heart!
I think I will call the drs office and cancel my appt for tomorrow... don't think I can drive or want to go anywhere now.
Thanks for listening... goodbye dear sweet Little Miss Renniew... I love you so much and always will... you truly will be missed by me and Tequila..
Nothing worse than the lifeless body of a true blue friend who was so full of life and love.... God help me make it through the night...
Tequila and I got through the night... sort of. My sweet boy slept alongside my body, cuddled in my arm, under the covers. Without him I would be truly a mess. I am not, I'm sad but fine! I kept having hallucinations thinking I heard her moving in the basket and a couple times hearing her bark. She WAS the vocal one for sure but I know I will even miss her harassing me eh? I did get some broken sleep. God blessed me with a beautiful vision of Oscar and Mishka playing in a field and turning to welcome my little girl with joy!! I KNOW she is fine! Her Daddy and her friend Mishka will take care of her.
I have no telephone. I am going to try to contact Cox via the net and see if I can get that fixed soon...
Have a blessed day.. hugs
That was very difficult.... Oh how I love that little fat girl! I removed her harness, wrapped her in a sheet after I held her and hugged her, cried a bit over her and kissed her. Then I put her little body in a plastic bag in a cardboard box. Left the box in the dog's room since I figure Tequila might want one more chance to pee on her eh? LOL When they were outside and she was peeing, he would always have to mark her pee with his, so possessive he is, and sometimes he didn't wait until she moved! Silly dogs.
Neighbor across the street, Todd, came to dig the grave for my little angel. What a relief! But it made it so much more final, yanno? I had Tequila on the lead so he could be there with us. He gave the box one sniff and that was all.
I am so blessed with wonderful people around me, and those of you who are not close but close in heart... God has always blessed me with wonderful animals in my life also..
I know I should eat something but just don't think I can so I will change into my swimsuit and go workout and find the peace I always do in the pool...
This was the second most difficult loss of a pet. The first was the morning I woke up and my little male poodle, Spice, was missing. I was putting Sugar and Baby out for the morning and heard him cry out. When I got to the front door I saw him laying in the street and was heading to get him when a pickup with a boat trailer came and as I looked into my little guys eyes they finished him off... All I could do was turn around and go back in the house. Again my next door neighbor went and got him and buried him under their lemon tree... those lemons were actually sweeter that year! I still have dreams about that morning even though it was at least 20 years ago...
How do you say thank you to someone who buries your heart??
Boy that hurt!! Took my breath away. The mailman came and she wasn't here to be my early warning system. Without her he doesn't have much interest in barking at the mail truck... Oh Renniew I miss you...
Very unusual workout! What it did mostly was make me miss my sister Sandy Jecmen-Fierce. Love the rain as long as it is not cold and there is no lightning and thunder. The last time I was in the pool in the rain she was with me and we had so much fun, like two little girls, and it was just a couple years ago. YUP it started raining on me while I was still skimming the leaves and bugs... and that proved to be useless once the rain brought down more leaves and bugs! LOL So I started with the leg work and squats, then some arm work all for about 15 min. The rain let up a bit so I started running, albeit a lot more slowly than uaual, and got a good 15 min of aerobics in.. and of course by that time the rain had stopped. I got out as I was worried about my little guy being so terribly alone now. As I was sitting in the lawn chair dripping off and trying to find my solace in that wonderful oasis that is their flower filled, fountain and wind chimes and birdsong musical back yard, I had my eyes closed and a drop of rain hit my face at the corner of my eye and ran down my face as a tear drop. When it was raining it was almost like my Lord, the angels, and perhaps my beloved Oscar and my 3 kids were crying with me..
I'm so glad I didn't linger much longer, I was gone about an hour, as when I got home my little guy came to me and was whining! I know he was lonely, missing his sissy. I keep telling him that the 2 of us will be okay.. and we will... loneliness has been a constant companion to me and he will learn that he can be okay by himself... I would like to rescue or foster another dog sometime... but no puppies, not able to handle that